HAHAHAHAHA
today is a milestone. definitely.
went for the 3rd yr lect on specificity n sensitivity. just cos my ou xiang's taking it. after the lect i stood outside for aaaages waiting for him to come out. when he finally did he saw me and
gave me a hug!!! and not a half hug either. a proper hug. and thanked me for the gingerbread cookies. and then...
"what are you doing?"
"er.. i was at a lecture."
"where? here?"
"haha yeah."
"oh i didn't see u in there."
there was another lecture right after his.. on palliative care. and obviously i wasn't going for that.
"are you not going for the next one?"
"no."
"why not?"
"erm.. cos you're not taking it."
i bet he thot i was freaky. hahaha. cos he didn't realise that i WASN'T supposed to be in the lect at all. so he thot i was skiving..
and then we walked back to the medical school to put his Zimmer back in his office.. and get the gingerbread cookies. he had to go to his office at the dept of general practice after that..
he asked me if i was going to the lib.. and i told him no.. i was going home. and he said, "oh.. which way is that? down byres road? we can walk together after this." or something like that.
so i happily went to his office with him. and on the way up, he asked why i decided to make gingerbread cookies.
"what made u think of making gingerbread cookies?"
"erm.. isn't that what pple have at xmas?"
"yeah.. but it's strange cos ginger happens to be my favourite flavour."
and then..
"are u sure u're not going for the palliative care lecture?"
"no. is it supposed to be gd?"
"well i don't know."
"it's a 3rd yr lecture.. i'll go next yr."
and he suddenly stopped in his tracks. and went, "oooh. i was wondering what u were doing in that lecture!!"
i suppose it finally hit him that i WASN'T supposed to be there. shldn't have made it so clear. but it's better than him thinking i'm a skiver. aniwae we were putting the Zimmer back in the storeroom and he brought the subject up again..
"so what were u doing in the lecture?"
"er.. i don't know.."
*start making some mumbling noises*
"i thought i might bump into u and say bye b4 i leave"
that's abt it. then we walked down byres road to his other office. can't remember everything we talked abt along the way. but i remembered him asking how long it takes me to get back. i told him i take the bus. cos it takes me an hr to walk back.
"i'm sure u can walk faster than that."
"not really. i have short legs."
and then he kept refering to my short legs. like.. u sure it wun be too far for u to walk down to safeway? etc.
anyway me, being really forward, asked if he minded me going to the dept of general practice just to see where it is and wat it looks like.. cos i've never seen it b4. and he said as long as i'm sure my short legs won't get shorter.
so we got there.. and he invited me in.. since i've walked all the way there anyway. and then he tried the gingerbread cookies in his office. pretended he was going to spit it out cos it was so bad.. but said it was really nice. i hope he wasn't just being nice n forcing it down tho. oh and he kept saying that i was really talented.. making the box n paper bag so nice n all.
"what would ur parents say if u tell them u dun want to be a doctor anymore and bake for me instead?"
haha. that's sweet. felt like i was imposing on him tho.. staying so long. so i asked if i shld go. (doesn't sound v nice. i mean.. how was he supposed to ans that?)
so he suggested going down to the basement.. so he could make tea and we could talk there. that's what we did. can't remember what the conversation was abt.. mostly abt my family back home.. his new house.. etc.
we were talking abt a lot of stuff when his colleague (whose name i shall not divulge) came in. and then they started talking abt the family proj. which was quite interesting. cos i'm doing the family proj this yr. but i kinda felt like i accidentally stepped into a meeting.
after a while we went back to his office. i asked him (again) if he's taking another vs grp this yr. (just to make sure.. cos my stupid friends have been scaring me with stories of seeing him with a grp of 2nd yrs.)
"are u taking another vs grp this yr?"
"no.. no.."
"not even half a grp?"
"no.. the experience last yr was too traumatic."
"it's a gd thing tho.. or i'll be really jealous if u were taking another grp. like, why am i not in that grp???"
"no.. you wouldn't want to listen to my voice all the time."
"that's not true. i sat thru your lect just now."
and then i said i'll leave. so he walked me to the door. i said i felt like i was imposing on him (that was the ONLY bit that was nagging me the whole time.. haiz.) and he said no. (obviously.. wat else can he say??)
oh well.. that's the end. and btw.. do u noe how long it was? like.. from the time we walked to the medical sch to the time i left his office??
one and a half hours!! i'm actually quite surprised i'm not that hua chi now. i suppose if u had quite a lot of something at one go.. the peak of the effect isn't tt great.. cos it's more spread out. i dunno. anyway my ou xiang is the best. heh.
he's made it so much easier for me. i feel fully justified for asking for a change of advisor now.
after half an hr of time-wasting in the library i decided to have a change of environment. especially since the security guard told me that the only meeting taking place in the medical school is the yr 3 student-staff meeting. (and i dun really know if that's his meeting).
so i stood guard
outside the medical school for the next 15 min. it's freezing cold today btw. i can't even see 100 m ahead of me cos it's so foggy. anyway it paid off. cos i saw him walk out with some other old men. i wasn't sure if it was him.. but called his name from behind anyway.
and this part totally annoys me.
he forgot he was supposed to meet me today!!! how nice of him. he was like, "oh right.. novalia. i completely forgot.. i'm glad u called me." HELLOOO?! and i just told him straight that i'm fine. cut the conversation short. and he went, "u're fine. that's gd. just as long as you know that i'm here if u ever need help.." yeah rite.. who wasn't there when i needed help? i kinda forgot.. remind me pls.
and den i decided to bring up the not-replying-my-mail thing. and u noe what he said?? he said, "oh right.. abt that.. i didn't know how i could help." YEAH RIGHT. all u had to do was reply my mail and gimme ur contacts. even IF u couldn't help.. at least REPLY n tell me.. instead of making me wait indefinitely.
but i mustn't be rude.. so i just told him it's all settled. i got my vs tutor to sort it out for me. (my ou xiang!!! aaaww..) so that's it.
tell me.. am i or am i not justified to ask for a change???
in the library being bored now. waiting for my wonderful advisor. and i don't even know if he's going to see me today. i emailed him to meet him after his meeting. and he said he expected to end at around 5 but it might last longer than that. so i emailed him back to give him my mobile no for him to call me when he's done.. and i asked if he'd rather me wait for him at some specific place.
and he didn't reply. what's new.
so now i don't know where he is, when he's going to be done, where to meet him, when to meet him, or even if i'm going to meet him.
i promise.. if i don't see him today.. i wun even try to be nice abt changing advisor. not like he cares anyway.
shld be having a free day today.. cos the morning lab was nothing but sleep-inducing. so were the two lectures in the afternoon. waste of time. apart from the fact that
i saw my ou xiang. even if only for a few split seconds.
why a few split seconds u may ask? how can a few seconds be described as "split"? i'll tell u why. cos i saw him having a meeting in a room while walking ard in the lib. so i walked past the room a couple more times. hahaha. that's how the "few" came about. and it's a split second at a time cos i can't possibly linger ard.. that's too obvious.
would have waited ard outside that particular room if not for the fact that me n shr had to watch this 9 min video on musculoskeletal examination.. which took us more than 30 min cos we had to pause n rewind every few seconds to take notes. (@?£&%!) by the time we were done they were gone. blegh.
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